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Finally some closure

“Now I lay you down to sleep, I pray the Lord your soul to keep. Within His arms, He’ll hold you tight, my Heavenly Angel, my guiding light.”

It’s been one week now since I knew something was wrong and have the answers I so desperately wanted… one week ago.

Today as it seems to be getting better I can finally see a light at the end of this tunnel. In fact I even ordered some tests online (we live to call them IC’s for Internet Cheapies) to tide me over when I start my POAS-holic phase…. (POAS means pee on a stick).

Basically we have to wait for this to end, and will try this m/c cycle, if it doesn’t work we will more than likely start with fertility drugs again (clomid).

Who knows though, maybe we will be blessed with a Christmas BFP!!! (BFP means Big Fat Positive).

oh and if your TTC (trying to conceive) I highly recommend using Fertility Friend!! I used it to TTC Sarah and am using it again this time around!

P.S. if your tired of hearing about my loss sorry but it’s my blog… in fact it started out as strictly my TTC journey! And I have to admit it’s been great actually blogging my feelings and not just reviews and such!

About the Author

Amanda Acuña an influential Mom Blogger created MommyMandy as an online resource to the parenting community. She has four children and they currently reside in Texas.


  1. Keep on posting girl, these are the times that blogging and writing should be occurring the most-in order to deal with grief-don’t ever apologize, you’re helping so many others.

  2. You wouldn’t have so many readers if people didn’t want to hear what you said. You give voice to a lot of our experiences. I relate so much to your recent loss and I thank you for sharing about it. I had no one to really share with back in 2002.

  3. You are absolutely right, it is your blog and you have every right to share your feelings, hopes, dreams, insights, or whatever the moment holds. I look forward to your non-review posts 🙂 Keep smiling, honey!

  4. I have been so busy lately I haven’t been able to keep up with the other blogs I follow for awhile. So I didn’t know you were pregnant and then just saw this post and have gone back and read everything. I am so sorry about your loss! Thank you for posting though. I am going through something similar.

    I have an adorable 2 year old boy but we have been trying for a year to get pregnant with our second with no luck. I finally got pregnant in July and I was thrilled. The next day I miscarried. So it was before I had a chance to tell anyone so I didn’t really have anyone to share it with besides my husband. We are still trying and haven’t had any luck but I’m also hoping for a BFP for Christmas! So my prayers are with you and I hope we both get what we really want for Christmas…a BFP! Good luck to you and thank you again for posting!

  5. I can’t believe some readers! It’s your blog and you can post whatever you feel like, especially since you built this blog on the TTC platform! My best friend is in a similar position as you and it breaks my heart for her.

  6. I have a 3 week old baby and tried for SO long to have her. I had a miscarriage before I got pregnant with my son, then after the miscarriage I conceived 2 months later and was terrified the whole time – but went on to have a healthy boy. Now, he’s 5 and after trying and wondering if something was wrong, we got pregnant – finally – and now, I’m sitting here holding my precious 3 week old baby girl in my lap. I’m praying for God’s highest blessings over you and your family!

  7. Praying you get that Christmas BFP!
    I will be testing in a week.. my husband wants me to test early but I want to wait to be sure.

  8. Ever since reading your post, I’ve been thinking about how lucky I am that I never had to go through this and wondering how those who did cope. I guess it’s like any sadness, the scars fade over time but they are always there.

  9. Never apologize for being open and needing to “talk’ in print. It’s a big world out there and not always pretty, so is nice to collect your team of friends and cheerleaders here too! Everyone needs an ear to listen and some TLC.

  10. Yes, you keep posting about it. Once, twice ten times a day if you want. You are right. Your blog. Your posts. 🙂 Blogs are great ways to get opinions and do reviews, but also wonderful to vent. You can come on over anytime and vent to me lol. I’m a great listener. Crossing my fingers for you. I’m glad you are opening up about this. I have a few family members and friends who are experienceing the same thing and I feel guilty telling them my great news. Like I feel lie I am rubbing it in their face when clearly I am not. Maybe I’m the paranoid one. Maybe it doesn’t really affect them like I think it does. Does it? You should do reviews to pregnancy tests lol. They are so darn expensive. I never buy the real expensive ones, though as I like to wait until I miss my period (TMI???) so it’s very accurate. I had a really hard time waiting this time around. With the first I didn’t realize I was pregnant right away. This time I was trying so I waited almost 3 weeks to take a test. Each day that passed was torture. Good luck!! Keep positive thoughts.


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